The Night and it's Silence

I am walking alone in the road of Basak and it is four in the morning. I am thinking of the problems I had; family, money, sexuality, love life and academics. Along my way, I see a gang of four. No, they're five. I'm scared and nervous. But when they are approaching near me, they are just jogging and they are kids. Thank God, I'm lucky enough that I did not meet some bad men.

Am I sad? No, I'm not. It is just that I have no reason to smile. It's dark and all I can hear is the songs of the crickets. No signs of human movements. I want to fetch a habal-habal but I prefer walking even if I know it's dangerous. I don't know. I think I'm crazy. I enjoyed this feeling of walking alone, being free and I feel that I can do what I want and I am able to do. No restrictions nor commands. I believe, this is my moment – my only moment.

The night and it's silence. And I realize, I appreciate the peacefulness of this night. Everything is beautiful this night, even the noise of the dogs barking to me. They are music that nature has created – beautiful and perfect. Free and alone. I am happy and my heart jumps with joy, without worries even if I know that the journey I'm taking is dangerous but still, I'm anticipating the risks I'm taking.

I'm alone but, I'm happy. I walk alone in the middle of the night. I'm thinking that this is my moment, my precious moment. Alone. Without anyone. Without him. Without her. Without them. But me. Myself and only myself.

As time progresses, the people are beginning to wake up. And I heard a group singing harana to a house. I want to listen because it is beautiful but I continue my walk instead. I don't know, all I can see and all I can hear is beautiful. And the coldness of this night is wonderful. This night is closer to perfection. The stars are looking at me. The crickets are singing with me. The cold morning breeze embraces me. It is joy that I'm feeling right now. I forget that I have problems and all I know is that I'm happy.

It is already five in the morning. I reached Mintal and the sun starts to shine. The night. The darkness and the beauty of darkness ended. My moment – my precious moment. It's through but still I'm happy. I feel joy that I appreciated life and Earth in its beauty.

I am lucky to have this journey because I am able to contemplate things and think of the significance of every single thing. That any thing can make you happy how small or big it is.

Thank God! Thank you for the experience! Thank you for everything! Thank you and I really appreciate it.